You've come to be my favorite writer on substack. Makes me think I should spend less time slurping up people's dumb political takes and more time looking for stuff like this.
Can I ask you a question? Why do you think you write? Do you feel better or does it help you understand more? Either way incredible share, the makings of a movie without the clean edges that is big bold weird life
Wow! You survived and can share the horrendous details with us. I admire you, I really do. I feel bad that you experienced so much mental illness. I can relate a little. I wrote down certain of your phrases that I love like "Looking for reasons outside of myself to take action" and "God whispers to us through sacred things"
Eh, it is what it is. Worth describing the way it actually is.
My one other comment is that while I too have had mother-complex-related sexual hangups, at least mine ended up being "first I didn't want to date anyone at all, then I found out some women were nothing like my mom and wanted to date only them". Which is somewhat better.
Thanks. Believe it or not, I started to write this cynically for clicks so I could sperg more at people about Republic style democracy on the Internet.
You've come to be my favorite writer on substack. Makes me think I should spend less time slurping up people's dumb political takes and more time looking for stuff like this.
That’s a tremendous compliment. Thank you, man.
Do you ever think to yourself "Damn, I am a resilient motherfucker."?
Kind of you to say but I definitely broke in my twenties.
I am glad you are alive and here to write this. God bless you, man.
Can I ask you a question? Why do you think you write? Do you feel better or does it help you understand more? Either way incredible share, the makings of a movie without the clean edges that is big bold weird life
Compulsive habit since childhood, although mostly about wizards.
Probably because I learned to live mostly up in my head.
Goddamnit man.
Wow. Thank you for sharing. I’ll echo the others in saying God bless you.
Wow! You survived and can share the horrendous details with us. I admire you, I really do. I feel bad that you experienced so much mental illness. I can relate a little. I wrote down certain of your phrases that I love like "Looking for reasons outside of myself to take action" and "God whispers to us through sacred things"
Thank you for sharing your story.
:/
I think this was maybe too much.
Eh, it is what it is. Worth describing the way it actually is.
My one other comment is that while I too have had mother-complex-related sexual hangups, at least mine ended up being "first I didn't want to date anyone at all, then I found out some women were nothing like my mom and wanted to date only them". Which is somewhat better.
Also I'm sorry you had to go thru that thing you mentioned.
Thanks. Believe it or not, I started to write this cynically for clicks so I could sperg more at people about Republic style democracy on the Internet.
What's that?
https://extelligence.substack.com/p/introduction-to-a-boring-utopia
See? I’m pretty nuts.
Down the rabbit hole I go...trying to merge this w my understanding of blockchain
Most similar to a DAO, but I wasn’t aware of those at the time.
"I just kept having to deal with different weird shit and it made me adaptable."
So many of us have had weird, stressful upbringings but I guess it makes for compelling lterature!